The Nine of Wands represents one of the most remarkable qualities a person can have: perseverance. Drive, fire, stubbornness, call it whatever you want; but I don't think anyone can deny that it's admirable. The journey through Wands, not unlike every person's journey through life, show us how resilient we are. Take the Nine of Wands as a sign of hope, as proof that no matter what you go through you have the strength to keep standing.
On the reverse, your fear of risk, of things not working out, holds you back. Its a cliche, but its true for a reason, the only one holding you back is you. You will never stop standing in your own way unless you acknowledge your own part in your unhappiness and work to change it. I know its hard to enact that kind of change and to keep it going, but look at it from a positive angle. The only person you have the power to change is you, the only person whose actions you can control are yours. Which means you have all the power in this, you just need to use it. One quote I love is from Yvonne Orji's Ted Talk: Fear is false evidence appearing real, faith is the assurance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen (10:05 to 10:15). So, have faith in yourself.
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