Five of Wands is a card of conflict. Even when that conflict is external, it can be traced back to internal roots. It's no surprise, nor a big secret, that we tend to be our own worst enemies. We self-sabotage, we wallow in our self-imposed misery, we act our frustrations out on other people, and then the people around us respond unfavorably. It's a vicious cycle to get locked into, and it becomes ridiculously easy to hide behind it and blame our grievances and shortcomings on other people. It's also easy to lose yourself in it. It's easy to become bitter and angry, to forget that your unhappiness begins and ends with you. To get through this, and the only way out is through, is to endeavor to be self-aware. As horrifying a prospect as that sounds, understanding yourself on such a deep level will give you peace.
The reverse Five of Wands can mean one of two things: either you conquered the conflict within yourself and in turn conflict outside of yourself, or you play the avoidance game. This is even more of a trek. How do you reach a breaking point when you'd prefer to avoid it? Breaking points are messy, tramping through your psyche and loosening self-tied knots is hard, and you don't want to do any of it. As someone who is a master avoider (also known as Mars in Cancer), this is something I always struggle with. It just seems most of my life could be summed up as sitting in a burning room and not trying to put the fire out; if that makes sense. But, the time did eventually come where it was more painful to do nothing than it was to try and work past my shit. You will hit it too, hopefully in less time than it took me. And it'll be hard but worth it.
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